this feeling scares me and i dont know what to do
i miss you so much
The picture on the left is me on April 5th, 2014. Two days before i got checked into rehab. My doc is pills & I had struggled with stopping for months. I pushed away all of the people that really loved me & let them all down. I stole, lied, manipulated, broke into my moms house when she was gone. I used everyone. I remember thinking ” I’m never gonna stop, I’m gonna die high ” I was determined to try everything & never stop. Overdosing never stopped me. I had been on a few boxes of pills the night before I went to rehab. Ended up going to the hospital. on April 9th I was sober for the first day in a while, I weighed 100 pounds, I was very dehydrated, & sleep deprived, my body was weak, I felt terrible. I had problems with my nerves from my overdose. but with time things have gotten so much better. the picture on the right is after I got out of rehab in June. I weigh 117 pounds now, I feel better in every way. I’m starting over. new school, new friends, new start. I’m proud of how far I’ve come. leaving it all behind, I’ve matured a lot. 135 days sober
this made me cry, i love you so much!!
Take pride in how far you have come and have faith in how far you can go.